The Precious Scars

Instagram These two photos are hauntingly beautiful to me, for one reason.......I can clearly see Jonathan 's soul .  Been struggling for a year to catch a glimpse of my own, hoping to reconnect with an emotion responsible for a specific biochemical reaction .  Have been unsuccessful in my attempts......mainly because seeing depths to this degree is almost impossible to achieve.  Yet with Jonathan Scott , I fight time and again not to see his.  Happens only when his face is "naked"...........free of make-up and not pumped full of botox.  Stop myself short of seeing...........because to gaze upon a person in this manner is akin to peering right into the core of their being.  It's not something that has ever happened with a stranger............and because it's more intimate than sex alone, baring witness to it............without Jonathan 's knowledge or consent, feels like a violation against him somehow.  The only people who have the righ...

Well, this is pretty much the halfway point here......which means, there is an end in sight!  Yay!  Unfortunately Jonathan Scott makes a cameo in all articles to follow.....which leaves me feeling very apprehensive.  I really don't want to piss him off.  Seems like a nice guy.......but if he's anything like me, he won't be happy.  I wasn't......not until the end.  As important as the information in this blog is, I don't want to put my company at risk.        Remember the guy from my vision ?  My childhood best friend shared so many qualities, I believed it was him.......initially.  Our future came to a grinding halt when he became privy to a family secret.....and left, supposedly to protect me.  Made me his benefactor.....out of guilt.  He grew up rich.....but only recently learnt the "family fortune" is in the billions.  I don't want it.  I wanted him.  His love meant more to me than all the mone...