The Precious Scars

Jonathan Silver Scott Earliest song I played obsessively was Pat Benatar 's Love Is A Battlefield .  Jonathan Scott and I met on a battlefield , our first lifetime.  January 17 is the day I was "officially" diagnosed with Hashimoto's ; this year, the Scott's threw a birthday party .......for someone else.  First "celebrity" thread I ever contributed.....was this; it's dated August 8......day I returned to Twitter .  It's weird we lived in the same city, same year; returned home same time.....because something beyond our control sidetracked our dreams.  We've not met .....but for a time, was convinced I'd not be leaving this world before that happened.  Crazy as it sounds.....moment I doubted, Jonathan "appeared" in my home.......flesh and blood; close enough to see every line on his face....spoke my name; fainted. Have always referred to him as Jonathan Scott ......for tagging purposes, but he's been  John ........

SMP, The After-Grad Party Sometimes I wonder if Jonathan Scott has awareness of me.  The more I learn about the twin flame connection , the more I question if I'm the only one.  Maybe that's why I see his soul so effortlessly; because we are  one soul in two bodies ?  If that's the case, can he see mine? Having  ONE soul , also means having  ONE Karma ; we're not individuals reaping what we sow, independent from others.  If one acts accordingly, the other benefits.....pays the price otherwise.  Suspect Jonathan and I will never share memories from common lifetimes for this reason; only one of us is responsible for clearing the karmic debt associated with it.  He has "awareness" of a past life in which we were " sworn enemies "; sports a scar same location as his death blow......but doubt he would recall details in the same manner I did.  Found myself screaming, " YOU LEFT ME!  YOU WERE MY ONLY FRIEND; MY ONLY...

March 22, 2018  was the day in which the events of A Banshee's Cry took place.  Precisely one year later, a couple of visions would spell the end of this particular leg of my journey.  Was to be born  March 22 , but an accident caused my mother to delivery me early.  I am exactly three years, two months, and two days older than Jonathan and Drew .  322  is said to be a sign of a powerful spiritual awakening.  #ILoveJonathanScott Drew Scott has a tendency to go a bit heavy with scented soaps.  Noticed this when I found myself trailing behind both him and Linda Phan , at a height level to his.  Thought I'd gone crazy.......until I learnt about the supernatural aspects of the twin flame phenomena.  Explained those times I glanced into a mirror......and saw Jonathan 's eyes in place of my own.  This is one of many photos in which I can see my face in his.  There were multiple occasions where I glimpsed ...

Were placed into position July/August to "stumble over" one another.  Know of each other through their "workzz".    Contact has been passive; indirect.  Attempts at direct communication have been delayed.  Have not yet met.....as of December 2018.    Took a hiatus.......to date a man who views himself a composition of parts.  He is every bit as funny and kind-hearted as Herman Munster ; externally exquisite like Eva in The Bride .....but compromising his dreams in the pursuit of worldly possessions has left him feeling more monster than man.  Anyone who has read  Mary Shelley 's novel knows the real monster is Victor Frankenstein .....creator of the creature.  Wonder sometimes if this man is creature.....or creator of his circumstances.  Not surprising he found me.......a woman whose dreams of fame and fortune began while watching the Universal classic, Frankenstein . The Scott Brothers Tabloids say ...

Transcending Times Ever heard the term " twin flames "?  I studied the Occult , Eastern Philosophies , Esoteric Arts ; inherited all my family's knowledge on the supernatural........never knew 'twin souls' was a thing.  It's rare because these persons don't generally seek each other out.  Some say it's because final ascension is required (the end of the reincarnation cycle) to trigger the need to search.  This would be true in my case.  Others believe it's because as perfect mirror reflections of one another (not to be mistaken with perfect partner), one has to be open to see all.....the good, bad, and ugly in themselves......to be ready.  Thing about Scotsmen is.........they enjoy bragging about the finer details of their life to anyone who would listen.  These Property Brothers have taken it a step further in committing their stories to visual media.  What this meant for me was months of " glitch " blitz attacks, forcing me towa...

Scottish men are by nature very romantic, super generous, have stamina up the yin-yang, and well.....let's just say God didn't "chintz" on them.  A small few feel so deeply, they become overwhelmed by new sensations......suffer panic and anxiety attacks in response.  Jonathan Scott falls into this category......and I'm pointing this out because there are a million women who think what they see on  Property Brothers ,  Property Brothers - Buying And Selling , and social media is who he is.  It is him.......in a work environment, but not a social or personal one.  One special lady will see the difference......know how to calm and soothe him when emotions run high.  Have no doubt  Jonathan  will find her......when he's ready to see.      The Scott Family As for me, everything about these guys keeps bringing me back " home "......awakening skills and senses I thought long lost.  " Industry eyes " and " designer's mind ...

Instagram These two photos are hauntingly beautiful to me, for one reason.......I can clearly see Jonathan 's soul .  Been struggling for a year to catch a glimpse of my own, hoping to reconnect with an emotion responsible for a specific biochemical reaction .  Have been unsuccessful in my attempts......mainly because seeing depths to this degree is almost impossible to achieve.  Yet with Jonathan Scott , I fight time and again not to see his.  Happens only when his face is "naked"...........free of make-up and not pumped full of botox.  Stop myself short of seeing...........because to gaze upon a person in this manner is akin to peering right into the core of their being.  It's not something that has ever happened with a stranger............and because it's more intimate than sex alone, baring witness to it............without Jonathan 's knowledge or consent, feels like a violation against him somehow.  The only people who have the righ...