The Precious Scars

Instagram These two photos are hauntingly beautiful to me, for one reason.......I can clearly see Jonathan 's soul .  Been struggling for a year to catch a glimpse of my own, hoping to reconnect with an emotion responsible for a specific biochemical reaction .  Have been unsuccessful in my attempts......mainly because seeing depths to this degree is almost impossible to achieve.  Yet with Jonathan Scott , I fight time and again not to see his.  Happens only when his face is "naked"...........free of make-up and not pumped full of botox.  Stop myself short of seeing...........because to gaze upon a person in this manner is akin to peering right into the core of their being.  It's not something that has ever happened with a stranger............and because it's more intimate than sex alone, baring witness to it............without Jonathan 's knowledge or consent, feels like a violation against him somehow.  The only people who have the righ...

Never had a fear of water.....until I found myself submerged by wind and waves.  Mom came to my aid; told me to "STOP FIGHTING!"  Stop fighting the currents.  Stop fighting to surface.  Wanted me to let go of trying to control the situation.  I did as she said.....and rose to the top.  Was hit by another wave...but instead of taking me under, its force carried me to the safety of shore.  This is exactly how my experiences leading towards the Property Brothers have been thus far....like "tidal forces" pushing and pulling at me.  I was not aware at first, for many reasons......subtleties, self-absorption.  The day I decided to leave the  Property Brothers  though......well, that's when everything changed. Hollywood Reporter I was giving it one last shot, finding and seeing the Property Brothers - At Home show.......otherwise I was walking away from these men forever.  Was already anticipating a bust........whic...

Scotsmen are crazy....no ifs, ands, or buts about it.  They're crazier still when they're dead.  My second guide is a Scotsman, but not from the original settlement in which my city now stands.  He's related to the Scott family ......or at least thinks he is.  Likely a ghostie who saw the family on a trip and decided to adopt the bunch of them.  Sees the boys as nephews; has a special affinity for Jonathan . Map of Scotland Looks to be middle aged.  Shows himself mostly bald; sometimes with facial hair, sometimes without.  Is a very tall, slender fella' with muscles.  I know this because he doesn't often wear a shirt.  Suffers from "Scottish halitosis breathe".  Can change his form however he wishes.....so shouldn't be an issue, but don't know if he truly understands this.  Perhaps he just likes remaining true to his former self.      When he shouts his name (which he does every time he manifests) it sounds...

Jacqueline, Age 16 Mom was right to deter me from seeing Brothers Take New Orleans .  As soon as I did, my mind became flooded with memories of her.  It's funny.  I couldn't even recall her name following the accident; had to trick someone into telling me.  All I remembered of her was her cranking the tunes the instant " Earth Angel " came on the radio and singing badly to it.  A second incident involved her opening the door; telling a bloodied woman to get into the car.  Boyfriend was beating on her in the streets.  No one else was willing to intervene.  Am told I have her hands.  She's the reason I gave up my coveted position as In-House Costume Designer to take on the challenge of developing a young theatre company's image.  I was the best candidate for the job....later titled Director of Development....simply because I was the only one who had any experience with the day-to-day running of a business, raising funds, working...

Kinda' been putting this next story off.....mainly because from here on in, things get really bizarre.  Still completely clueless as to the fact my movements are being manipulated.  About to become hit hard with coincidence....after coincidence.....after coincidence.....after coincidence.  Those who have read previous blogs of mine know my motto is "A point is a point; two points are a line; and three is a pattern.".  Coincidence is in no way the work of a higher power.........except when three align to create a pattern.  It's rare for there to be an excessive amount to one pattern or multiple patterns all somehow interconnected.  If by chance it occurs, it is "of Cosmic significance"....according to my mother.    Timeline-wise, I've completed Property Brothers - At Home on the Ranch .  I declared in Hell Hath No Fury Like A Woman Scorned , I intended to kick the butt of one Jonathan Silver Scott .  Here's the thing....I'm a 5'1"...

Understanding The Empath - The Earth Angel Now, I did say in That Grand Old Dame I was being divinely led.  I also said I was completely oblivious to this fact.  As far as I was concerned, I was on a solo mission to seek out and see my soul again.  Sounds frivolous, but the theory behind the idea was solid.  Feelings produce biochemical reactions specific to those emotions.  At the moment I saw my soul, I experienced one I'd never felt before or since.  The hope was that this unique biochemical cocktail was somehow responsible for the improvements to my overall health.  Simple science.  I had no reason to believe spirits, angels, gods, or the likes had taken any particular interest in my well-being. I know there is a higher power at work here because like the Fates , Trinity , and Ebenezer 's Ghosts, my guides number three.  They have cognition, operate in tandem, and share the same end goal.  The numerous computer "glitches" ...