The Precious Scars

Jonathan Silver Scott Earliest song I played obsessively was Pat Benatar 's Love Is A Battlefield .  Jonathan Scott and I met on a battlefield , our first lifetime.  January 17 is the day I was "officially" diagnosed with Hashimoto's ; this year, the Scott's threw a birthday party .......for someone else.  First "celebrity" thread I ever contributed.....was this; it's dated August 8......day I returned to Twitter .  It's weird we lived in the same city, same year; returned home same time.....because something beyond our control sidetracked our dreams.  We've not met .....but for a time, was convinced I'd not be leaving this world before that happened.  Crazy as it sounds.....moment I doubted, Jonathan "appeared" in my home.......flesh and blood; close enough to see every line on his face....spoke my name; fainted. Have always referred to him as Jonathan Scott ......for tagging purposes, but he's been  John ........

March 22, 2018  was the day in which the events of A Banshee's Cry took place.  Precisely one year later, a couple of visions would spell the end of this particular leg of my journey.  Was to be born  March 22 , but an accident caused my mother to delivery me early.  I am exactly three years, two months, and two days older than Jonathan and Drew .  322  is said to be a sign of a powerful spiritual awakening.  #ILoveJonathanScott Drew Scott has a tendency to go a bit heavy with scented soaps.  Noticed this when I found myself trailing behind both him and Linda Phan , at a height level to his.  Thought I'd gone crazy.......until I learnt about the supernatural aspects of the twin flame phenomena.  Explained those times I glanced into a mirror......and saw Jonathan 's eyes in place of my own.  This is one of many photos in which I can see my face in his.  There were multiple occasions where I glimpsed ...

Transcending Times Ever heard the term " twin flames "?  I studied the Occult , Eastern Philosophies , Esoteric Arts ; inherited all my family's knowledge on the supernatural........never knew 'twin souls' was a thing.  It's rare because these persons don't generally seek each other out.  Some say it's because final ascension is required (the end of the reincarnation cycle) to trigger the need to search.  This would be true in my case.  Others believe it's because as perfect mirror reflections of one another (not to be mistaken with perfect partner), one has to be open to see all.....the good, bad, and ugly in themselves......to be ready.  Thing about Scotsmen is.........they enjoy bragging about the finer details of their life to anyone who would listen.  These Property Brothers have taken it a step further in committing their stories to visual media.  What this meant for me was months of " glitch " blitz attacks, forcing me towa...

Scottish men are by nature very romantic, super generous, have stamina up the yin-yang, and well.....let's just say God didn't "chintz" on them.  A small few feel so deeply, they become overwhelmed by new sensations......suffer panic and anxiety attacks in response.  Jonathan Scott falls into this category......and I'm pointing this out because there are a million women who think what they see on  Property Brothers ,  Property Brothers - Buying And Selling , and social media is who he is.  It is him.......in a work environment, but not a social or personal one.  One special lady will see the difference......know how to calm and soothe him when emotions run high.  Have no doubt  Jonathan  will find her......when he's ready to see.      The Scott Family As for me, everything about these guys keeps bringing me back " home "......awakening skills and senses I thought long lost.  " Industry eyes " and " designer's mind ...

Instagram These two photos are hauntingly beautiful to me, for one reason.......I can clearly see Jonathan 's soul .  Been struggling for a year to catch a glimpse of my own, hoping to reconnect with an emotion responsible for a specific biochemical reaction .  Have been unsuccessful in my attempts......mainly because seeing depths to this degree is almost impossible to achieve.  Yet with Jonathan Scott , I fight time and again not to see his.  Happens only when his face is "naked"...........free of make-up and not pumped full of botox.  Stop myself short of seeing...........because to gaze upon a person in this manner is akin to peering right into the core of their being.  It's not something that has ever happened with a stranger............and because it's more intimate than sex alone, baring witness to it............without Jonathan 's knowledge or consent, feels like a violation against him somehow.  The only people who have the righ...

Spoke very little when I was young.....because I stuttered.  Vocals functioned only when I sang.  Dreams of being a singer died the day I woke up unable to carry a tune.  Mom sought out specialists.  Was her idea to offer me a new voice in the form of a blank diary, when all else failed. Street Art 9 Photograph by Blue Muse Fine Arts My love for music comes from her side.  She played Beethoven to my brother in the womb; likely is responsible for his adoration of classical music.  Think my Grandpa may have played the fiddle.  His mother was affluent on the harp, so much so she was approached dozens of times about world tours.  Wanted a family more than she wanted fame.  I am particularly fond of the violin and piano.  Music is a huge part of my life.....especially during times when I'm needing to feed and nourish my soul.  This period was no different......except the songs I usually sought, brought me no comfort.  T...

Sailing With The Scotts 2018 Highlights Every once in a while an object comes into my possession I know is not meant for me.  I'll be drawn to it quite suddenly; find myself playing with the idea of having it more and more until "needing" it grows into an obsession.  The instant I become overwhelmed by the certainty it HAS TO be with me, I obtain it.......only to discover, I'm simply meant to hold onto it for safe keeping.  The person whom it's truly for eventually is sent to me.    There's been a reason for everything on this journey......including my growing interest in Sailing With The Scotts .  Didn't start out that way.  Was only meant to be an option IF I could not deter my brother from this cruise idea.  Got nothing against cruises.  Haven't even been on one.  It's just......the one he had in mind would not have been anywhere close to fun for me.  After hearing about Sailing With The Scotts on  Google Talk , ...

Never had a fear of water.....until I found myself submerged by wind and waves.  Mom came to my aid; told me to "STOP FIGHTING!"  Stop fighting the currents.  Stop fighting to surface.  Wanted me to let go of trying to control the situation.  I did as she said.....and rose to the top.  Was hit by another wave...but instead of taking me under, its force carried me to the safety of shore.  This is exactly how my experiences leading towards the Property Brothers have been thus far....like "tidal forces" pushing and pulling at me.  I was not aware at first, for many reasons......subtleties, self-absorption.  The day I decided to leave the  Property Brothers  though......well, that's when everything changed. Hollywood Reporter I was giving it one last shot, finding and seeing the Property Brothers - At Home show.......otherwise I was walking away from these men forever.  Was already anticipating a bust........whic...